I would sit in a parking lot at 2:37am with you.
❝ Forget stardust—you are iron. Your blood is nothing but ferrous liquid. When you bleed, you reek of rust. It is iron that fills your heart and sits in your veins. And what is iron, really, unless it’s forged?
You are iron.
And you are strong. ❞
n.t. (via thelittle-hobbit)
We live in a rusty universe. Oxygenated heme is the color of life, the color of passion, the reason we see red of as ripe and warm, the reason we see it as dangerous and frightening. Blood, breath and Earth, we’re all rusty.
Suicidal feelings are not the same as giving up on life. Suicidal feelings often express a powerful and overwhelming need for a different life. Suicidal feelings can mean, in a desperate and unyielding way, a demand for something new. Listen to someone who is suicidal and you often hear a need for change so important, so indispensable, that they would rather die than go on living without the change. And when the person feels powerless to make that change happen, they become suicidal.
Help comes when the person identifies the change they want and starts to believe it can actually happen. Whether it is overcoming an impossible family situation, making a career or study change, standing up to an oppressor, gaining relief from chronic physical pain, igniting creative inspiration, feeling less alone, or beginning to value their self worth, at the root of suicidal feelings is often powerlessness to change your life – not giving up on life itself. ❞
❝ I realized
that at this point my
heart was standing tall in my chest,
my feelings were standing in my chest;
this is what happened to me.
From this point I flowed downstream
like I was flying,
like I was running,
forever downstream. ❞
Hiraga Satano, “Horkew kotan kor kur”
Part of a divine epic poem that reflects the reverence of wolves in Ainu (indigenous people of Japan) culture.